An album in quarters (I)

I started writing this blog to promote my recently released album Arts & Crafts and Frankensteins. I've written about pretty much everything concerning my music life, but I just realized I haven't really written much about the album itself, the music in it. As my commitment to write 90 consecutive posts comes to an end, I feel like giving you a little insight on each an every one of those songs, in case you care to know what they are about.

The first song in the album is called "You ruin my sadness", which I co-wrote with the photographer Ismael Tato. It talks about how great it is to find someone who manages to make sense of you even when you can't make sense of yourself, and is able to "ruin your sadness" without even trying. I highly recommend working hard on finding such a person. Here you go:

Please, don't go anywhere/ Don't leave me alone/ Alone with my thoughts/ And don't ask me what is wrong/ 'Cause I just don't know/Well, at least, not in words/ But if I start to run/ Will you please come and chase me down/ You shouldn't have let me depend on you in the first place/ Now I need you to keep me hurting myself/ 'Cause you/ ruin my sadness/ You ruin my sadness/ Now, I know I look big/ Even from the distance/ And everybody knows/ Everyone knows I talk loud/ Sometimes louder than I'm tall/ Sometimes braver than I'm strong/ Sometimes all these word come to stare me down/ And those dreams come to prove their undone/ I don't know what'll happen when you're down yourself/ Hope I'll find a way to believe what I say/ To ruin your sadness/ To ruin your sadness.

The second song is "Remus", a beautiful cat that I used to own, whom I pestered with my love until she loved me back. Rubbing my nose against her belly, uncertain of whether she would allow it or, instead, make a grid of my scalp with her able little claws, was one hell of a thrill.

I've labelled the color of your eyes "impossible green"/ Is there a light bulb there inside your skull, be still now, let me see/ You close a hole into another dimension every time you blink/ That effortless way of getting my attention, just sitting there and staring at me/ And I know that your body's not meant to endure as long as mine, that much is true/ And I often wonder if life's boring to you, if there's something there that I can do/ I can see you're in need of affection, why not get it from me?/ You rub your temple with such intention/ you're teasing me, I can't help but think/ You spread your love around the house/ hope sooner or later you'll meet my hand/ and you will or you will not but next time around/ I'll try my best again to find out what it is you want/ And I know that your body's...

The third, and last for today, is called "Click my tongue". It's the oldest in the compilation, I was very young and needed very badly for love to be perfect and simple. The gradual realization that it is anything but gave way to songs like this one. That's it for today, more to come soon.

Click my tongue, sure there’s something I forgot/ I try real hard, but I can only thing of the things/ That come into my mind/ And my mind is always almost full and nearly gone/ From where I am/ I used to like it this way, it used to be fun when I was twelve/ With my big mouth and my big foot/ And all this talent about to bloom/ "Nothing in this world that you can’t do if you want to, if you want to"/ You're lying next to me/ Maybe if I could get up without waking you up/ I’d loose this fear of losing you/ Of being too much and giving few of the things you need/ Silence and peace and space and air/ The feeling that you can be upset without driving me mad/ Without hurting me bad/ Your eyes dim, as though the sun was going down inside of you/ Silence falls like a veil and sorrow spreads out/ You can’t contain it/ You’d want me to step back, but I can’t And I’d willingly take the blame so that it/ Wasn’t something out of my hands/ So that love was good enough for anything/ Anything but being meant for you if you’re not meant for me/ But if you don’t prove me wrong...